I’m going to go into more detail and whatnot from this post the other day. I had edited it to include my feelings from that day, too, and decided that it’s be better to put it under a cut. Er… let’s just say that my head wasn’t 100% clear and I was an emotional wreck…

Alright, so, this all started off because the admins at the time (Ciid, Ethan, Shady, and myself, JT was at work) were trying to quell a derailment on a serious thread (that being Andy’s goodbye thread, and here are his feelings on the situation) because it was a goodbye thread and should have been treated with respect and not spammed, leading into harassing the admins and making at least some of us nervous wrecks.

I came in near the beginning and was trying to figure out what happened, though everything was moving pretty fast, it took me a while to find out what was going on and after a while, I was freaking out because Ethan was being attacked and I was having a bit of anxiety over it >.>;

After trying again and again to tell people to chill the fuck out and step away from facebook for a while (no one listened) I freaked out more due to stress and pretty much shut down.

Now, I curse in any situation, just assume that I don’t actually mean it and ignore it when I do. Even if it’s a serious situation (unless it a job interview or something along that sort of importance), I tend to curse. I’ve cursed in front of pretty important people, too, in school (both high school and my short time in art school >.>;) and have gotten scolded because of it, but I really can’t help it >.>;;; I try to tone it down depending on where I am, though (and I don’t curse at home, so when I go out, it’s usually fair game >.>;;;).

Now, the following is what I posted to try and get everyone to just step back and chill (I could have handled it better, admittedly, but I was stressed out and feeling shitty and just not in a good place…)

"Guys, just fucking stop, I’m am having terrible anxiety over all of this and my head is pounding. We, the admins are trying to fix this, but it doesn’t help when you attack one/some/all of us. Chill the fuck out and just step away from Facebook for a while X.x"

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"Also, none of us are stepping down. Please do not fight with the admins when we ask you to do something."

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"[at the fact that the adminship was fucked up (Exact quote: “I’m calling for change, because the current system is broken.”)] None of us are actually starting things this time, Tristan, people are antagonizing us and starting shit. Just chill the fuck out and step away from Facebook and get some sleep, everyone"

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"Guys, seriously, just fucking stop. I am freaking out, I have to go decorate and pretend that everything is peachy keen and bullshit my way out of my uncle’s asap. Stop fucking going after people and antagonizing them and stop starting drama. This is not helping my anxiety and my anorexia and I was in tears a few times last night…

I would appreciate it if you guys would just lay off of Facebook when you’re going to start something or say something stupid…"

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"Also, you are stressing out the admins and other members and it doesn’t help anything when you start shit…"

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"None of this was meant to be antagonistic. I am already dealing with enough stress at home and it caused my body to finally break down a bit and give me a major cramp, nearly bringing me to tears, and get pretty sick the other day for a little while…

I come here to get away from the shit hole that is my daily life, I don’t need to come to my family away from my real family to deal with more drama…

This is not why I gathered up everyone initially earlier in the year. I wanted everyone to get along and be friends and chum around and talk about Slender and brainstorm ideas and the like, not create drama and make the other creators feel like shit and belittle them for their opinions and attacking mods because they’re actually trying to rectifying the situation that someone is making worse.

I still love you guys, for better or worse, because you guys have been a family to me. But, lately, I just don’t know it it’s worth it due to the increasing amount of drama that has been surfacing and the stress and anxiety attached to it…"

(I have a good majority of the argument capped and, if asked, will give the caps out on a case by case basis)

Again, that’s usually how I am. I know that I could have handled it better, but when I get overly stressed, I pretty much shut down. I do this at home, and when I shut down, I become a zombie, of sorts…

Yes, in the past, Ethan and myself have fucked up. We both regret our actions and are deeply sorry. Just because there are people out there who are still challenging this doesn’t mean that we’re less apologetic about things.

Still, you can be apologetic for actions, but you don’t have to be apologetic for opinions. I have an opinion and I’ll state it. You have the right to respectfully disagree with said opinion.

But, when you antagonize someone over and over again for their actions, well after they apologized, or antagonize someone for their opinion, they’re going to bite back after being pushed for so long, and that’s exactly what happened in the group. There were people throwing around things like abuse of power and that we were trying to silence/censor people when we were not. There have been new rules implemented and we were following them to the T pretty much, and we all got shit for it.

We have new mods after this whole shit storm. Ethan, Ciid, and myself are no longer mods. I was really bummed the night we got kicked as mods and was in tears because it means a lot to me (and I know that I shouldn’t have cried as much as I did but it was and still is a big deal for me…) and to just be dropped suddenly with no warning made me extremely upset…

I feel like we shouldn’t have been let go, we were just trying to do our jobs and getting attacked for it… I still feel hurt and a touch betrayed, honestly…

POKEMON X3

With the following four downloads, you can use any or you DS games: Diamond, Pearl, Platinum, HeartGold, and/or SoulSilver

The three legendary dogs
Game Stop;
All shiny versions
Raikou: Jan 3-9 (over)
Entie: Jan 17-23 (over)
Suicune: Jan 31-Feb 6 (over)

Ash's Pikachu
Toys R Us
Jan 30-Feb 5 (over)

(no official link yet, but I have the link to the Serebii post: Please scroll all the way to the bottom)
Celebi
Gamestop
Feb 27-March 7

FFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

I'm pissed that I missed out on Mew in October >:C WHY THE HELL DID I NOT KNOW THIS!?!?!?!?!?!?

Found out that I have a Mew, I am pleased again :D

"1. I didn't 'join your game', I commented on your blogs and made one of my own because all the cool cats were doing it. I don't recall speaking to either of you about any fucking game of any sort, hence my displeasure at being deceived.

2. I didn't start shit. I said something to Michiru that I guess she didn't appreciate so she waged this whole bitch fit on me. I was planning to stop following them long before this happened.

3. Chase, quit going around talking shit about me. This is between you, Michiru, and I.

4. Don't be an idiot, you're hearing Chase's heavily biased side of the story. Don't say 'good riddance'. That's a really shitty thing to say when you have no clue what the fuck is going on.

5. Kite, I'm completely done with you. You trash talk me in public but then you beg for my friendship on MSN. It's gotten on my nerves and I'm tired of it.

People like you are why I hate Unfiction, and the vast majority of the human race." - Joker (link to the thread on Unfiction)

Lol, cool story, bro. I love this, I'm just writing him off because he's just being an asshole. And, my comment on the Unforums was not biased in the least. God, I'm not mad in the least. The more I think about it, I get more amused. I mean, yea, I'm a little agitated for him treating us all like shit and refusing to be out of character and other stupid shit, but I can over look that. Don't betray my trust and act like nothing's wrong. Doesn't bode well with me and I pretty much get rid of trash like you. I'm not going to give you satisfaction of getting me mad, because this whole thing is just hilarious.

I just don't want him bothering me. That's the thing :/ I'll prob'ly get rid of him from all the places that I have added him on, like MSN and Facebook.

And a pain in my ass >:/ (bolded text is Joker's post)

Quick Note Part 2: Chase Is A Bitch

Gonna try and upload some stuff on Saturday. I think we’ll be to the Narrows by then.


War Driving is fun.

(Link: Way to start off the holiday, you fucking prick :/)

Yea... Dumbass... But I'm done with his shit and his drama. I think he's calling me a bitch because I didn't answer his question on my personal Tumblr and he's pissed :/ And every time I go back on, I think, "Hey, I've got a new... FFFFUUUU DAMMIT, IT'S HIM, FUCK!!!!" Haha, god, that always makes me feel silly XD

But, I found out something else that I'm none too pleased with. Fucking Bree who's been latching herself to my boyfriend's best friend has decided to say malicious things about me to my boyfriend. Now, I don't care. Whatever, silly high schoolers drama is not my concern. She's just trying to be a bitch a snatch up Mike all to herself and alienate him from all of his friends. Whatever, I wrote her off a while ago, just never bothered to actually unfriend her on a few of the site where I'm friends with her on... More specifically Gaia and Facebook. I just wanna keep her as a friend on FB to see if she's got more malicious shit to say about me behind my back :/

I'm not going to confront her, I'll just let her think what she wants. I know that I've been faithful, and that's more that she can say. I'll just leave it at that.

EDIT: Don't think I'm mad about this, though I am a little irritated. It's amusing that people start drama for the sake of starting drama. I think is a few things:

To fuel their ego
To put people down
To make themselves feel like the best/most important
Just for fun
To tear apart people's relationships.
To be a bully
To just troll viciously

And I'm sure that there is prob'ly more. I personally don't care about people like that. The sooner their out of my life, the better. In Joker's case, I'm only following him as a slendy blog, nothing more, at this point. I've talked it over with Michi, and she agreed. Though, I've got a feeling that she'll just unfollow him on Tumblr. Whatever, doesn't bother me anyway if someone hates me. That energy could be used for better things, but it's not my life and I sleep just as well at night, either way.

"I'm the one being butthurt? I'm not the one going around talking shit on Unfiction and my own little blog, bro. In fact I'm pretty sure you did, in fact, go out of your way to say it was at no fault of yours or Michiru. Don't worry, Michiru told me all about how desperate you are to keep me in your little 'game', so I understand why you're so mad." - Joker

Ok, so, in order to understand this comment, you need to know a few things. (give or take 15 things, actually)

1) Joker had joined my Slenderman blog, after it had be established (I'm assuming that he wanted to make a name for himself via my blog)

2) Joker (and Willow) had been doing good and were being very cooperative. We even had Kite (a fan) help us out and be cooperative with us. We were friends.

3) Small fights and what not start here, my introduction of Lon and the post (which I still have saved for a later date, but will heavily edit it) that I had pissed off Joker because it was in reference to the Rake.

4) Joker gets pissed because the rake is "real" and he's adamant about it. I took the posts down after he got done threatening me. (He's stayed in character for everything, like our MSN chats. Even when Michi and I go out of character. Can't say that it's his best call, but it sure pissed Michi off.)

5) Everything is fine for a little while longer.

6) Ulryc and Michi have a chat, he tells her about Joker calling everyone fake (Michi, Kite, Ulryc, and myself), Michi asks for the chat log. Needless to say, Michi get pissed about this.

7) Michi talks to him out of character, he stays in character. She says a few thing, assuming that he'd keep them quiet... Doesn't work out that way

8) Back and forth bickering between Joker and Michi, then Willow joins in later. I stay out of if, because I don't need to fight over something so trivial.
8a) I'd posted a few opinions about the situation on my personal Tumblr to clear the air of what I thought of the drama and the whole situation. I was a little pissed about everything.

9) Joker and Willow get pissed and publicly call Michi, Kite, and myself fake. Joker later refers to us as traitors. Ulryc is not mentioned, but we all know that he's involved in the group, too.
9a) The public post refers to me coming out on unfiction about Joker.
9b) My unforum post: Wow, you actually read that, god I feel so embarrassed.

Truth is, Michi let him in the game (I'd no idea until after the fact...), but I thought that it'd be cool if he joined. Pretty much, he was a side character, but I guess that he wanted to break free and establish his own story line (hence the Rake plot). The fight that Michi and Joker (and later Willow), was actually legit, but they all stayed in character... Now, I'm guessing that he wants nothing to do with us after that fight, so he's not part of our story anymore :/

I still follow him, though, as stated in my personal blog, but he just doesn't follow us, in character or not.

Alright, I'll go back to hiding and lurking, now... : x

(he might come here and yell at me for this, but it's the truth...)

10) After I'd made the above comment, he got really pissed at me. He commented a few times on my personal Tumblr about how pissed he is.
10a) Post 1: Oh I'm sorry and I the one being a baby? My dearest apologies for no longer wanting to associate with two annoying little girls who want to play pretend. Are you sad I'm not sticking around? Are you insulted, or inconvenienced? My dearest apologies that you two decided to fucking PMS all over the place and take it out on me. You two have nobody to blame but yourselves.
10b) Link to the post and my answer
10c) This is in reference to this post
10d) Ulryc's response to the above link and my response to it
10e) Kite's response and my response to him

11) Literally just got this (time was about 1:15 am Dec 24) via Facebook emailing me (this was after I wished Joker a happy birthday on the 21st): You wish me a happy birthday and then two days later you try to stab me in the back. Done like a true underhanded bitch.

12) Related link: Slendy bingo card and a small explanation to it.

This post may or may not be edited later... depending on what information I get.

(copypasta from my DevArt)

So, for the title of the journal, I'm just letting everyone who watches my series The Stopping Lights know that this is all out of game. You ask me something too in game, and I'll kill you.

Yes, I've done all of the graphics, but I'm also an aspiring artist, and photo/picture editing is really easy :/ That all I can say, since you've all been lead here by, yes, me <3

Most anything else is off limits, other than the provided information or if I feel that you need to know. But, then that would be posted on the blogs and what not :/

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Here are some things that I can let you in on:

I do the art for Michiru's and Chase's blogs. I love Photoshop, so I use it often. I'm much more of a digital artist, but do dabble in traditional art. (for the sake that I lack a tablet :/)

I do answer any and all question on the blog, but if it's too intrusive, I'll flat out let you know.

My boyfriend's completely oblivious to this, haha (I plan to tell him later :/)

Feel free to stalk, just don't cross the line of in/out of game.

My in game is pretty much the same as my out of game personality... So, pretty much 90% of the posts that I've posted is true. I do relay my out of game life into my in game life.

Yes, I've fully watched all of the popular Slendy series on youtube and I've read some of the blogs, here and there, but not all of them, and I'm not finished any of them. I'm really slow about the blogs :/

There are really cool people out there :D (of coarse I'm referring to all of the Slendy bloggers and vloggers)

.... If anything else comes up, here's how to contact me:

Email:
xxchasechan2050xx@yahoo.com
chasechan2050@hotmail.com
chasechan2050@gmail.com

Messengers:
Yahoo: xxchasechan2050xx
AIM: Chasechan2050
MSN: Chasechan2050
Skype: Chasechan2050

These are all my personal things, but I really don't care :/ Feel free to harass me about some stuff :D

I've now got the new LiveJournal Messenger. My Windows Live ID is chase_chan@livejournal.com. Sign up now and we can chat!

Totally scored 5 VHS tapes of the original few Pokemon seasons (4 from season and 1 from the Jhoto season), but it's going towards Christmas presents <3 Though I'm totally happy that I found them. I also found the Pokemon: 2000 movie, but I already had that XD; I can't wait!

Also in Pokemon news, I scored a HUGE rubber poster from John that he got from Toys R Us <3 I'm not sure what it looks like, but it's never been used and practically in mint condition :D I can't wait to hang it up, as soon as I find out where I can find space to move everything on my Pokemon wall to somewhere else in my room...

And I've been drawing up some Pokemon heads just for fun so I have an excuse to draw and use my spiffy new Crayola Twistables color pencils and crayons <3 so far, it's Piplup, Darkrai, and Ho-oh, but I'm up to draw more later then I'll scan in Ho-oh and what ever else I feel like drawing :3

Though I did manage to stab myself today T-T while sewing, so it hurt and I bled a little and the needle didn't go very far, but hit the inside of my nail :/ I still have a bit 'til Otakon, but I have a ton to do @-@; I'm doing parts of Seth from Trinity Blood and all of Horo from Spice and Wolf (Which, by the way, is something you all should watch <3)

sorry about that guys, I kinda disappeared for a while... I'm busy doing nothing with life and cosplay and getting references and materials for Queen Seth for Otakon. And fighting with granny.... again :/

So, I figure that it's alright to let you in on what cosplays I'm doing for Otakon :3
Friday: Prob'ly going down as Horo from Spice and Wolf but if it falls through with me getting the outfit, I'm gunna go down as Casual!Ritsu from Fruits Basket
Saturday: Queen Seth from Trinity Blood (yes, I'm crazy XD;), but Jenn is helping me out with it <3
Sunday: Possibly Zoicite from Sailor Moon? I'm not sure if I'm gunna do that or dress back in Horo again.

(by snuddles/Brandy)

誠に申し訳ありません。

現在大変込み合っておりますので、時間を置きまして再度御アクセス頂ければ幸いです。

利用者様にはご迷惑をお掛けしますが、ご理解のほど宜しくお願い申し上げます。

Translated by babel fish:

There is no excuse truly.

Because presently very much we have been crowded, giving some time, if you can access for the second time, it is fortunate.

Annoyance is put in the user, but extent of understanding we ask may.

My Translation:

There is truly no excuse [for this].

We're a bit crowded at the moment and would like for you to try and refresh to access this page again. [It'd be fortunate for you(?)]

We understand that this may be an annoyance (inconvenience), but we ask you to be understanding [of the situation].

my up to date list on anime, manga, and whatever else: (updated: 4.15.10)
visit <3
( Prob'ly the largest list of manga/anime you've ever seen... )

so, the concept of the movie was great, I just think that to coulda done better :/

I pretty much suck at writing reviews, so here are pros and cons :D... sorry if it's not cool :/ it's the best I can get to a review

Pros:
1. CHESHIRE CAT ♥ the BEST part of the movie, they did an excellent interpretation of Cheshur from the book
2. Some of Depp's parts were alright
3. I love the March Hair (seems like a crack addict XD;)
4. The fact the the Dormouse had a bigger roll in the movie :3 (and not drunk all of the time like in the Disney animated Alice :/)
5. The White Queen was done pretty well :D

Cons:
1. I have a lot of mechanical problems with the movie, but as there are too many to list, I'll mention some general ones (because I can't seem to enjoy CGI/human movies anymore as I've been taught to look at the mechanics :/):
2. Things going through other things
3. CGI/human interaction seem a bit... inorganic
4. Red Queen's head/body (among with other characters, but she the most obvious) ratio is a bit of a problem CGI wise (you can see where they stopped the CGI enhanced head stops and the real body begins)
5. The Jabberwocky's lightening :/ it didn't seem very natural when it hit things :/
6. Johnny Depp in general :/ he just... seemed like he didn't wanna do some of the things (added onto the fact that he used his Jack Sparrow voice :/)
7. IT'S PRACTICALLY A SEQUEL! Most of the movie takes place in the Through The Looking Glass part of Alice. I would have rather'd they do two movies if I knew it would turn out this way :/ I mean, over all, it's not too bad, but just the fact they treated it as a sequel is just annoying (my boyfriend and our friends were a little confused as they haven't read Alice in Wonderland as the movie is the second half of the book)
8. The ending isn't even cannical/in the original book :/
9. I wish that the knights were evenly dispersed with cards and chess pieces as it is in the whole book, but I did like the armor for each side.
10. There was no Dinah the cat :/ (more of a personal qualm XD;)
11. Alice is between 7-7 1/2 in the book series, not 19-20 as in the movie >:C I understand a bit of why they did it, but still bothers me :/
12. I kinda wish that they made the Red and White Queen partially chess pieces if they were gunna go for being completely Through the Looking Glass (another personal qualm...)

I hate my teacher for telling me to look at the mechanics of movies, 'specially CGI/human and digital movies

I've managed to find a way to open Photoshop (couldn't do so 'cause of the viruses I have on my PC :/) so I'm gunna finish my project and then go to bed. (now to try the same with iTunes as listening to music is rather enjoyable on Youtube, it gets annoying when the song ends and I have to stop and choose another song :C)

hopefully I'll be able to get rid of my viruses soon and have a nice, safe PC again... though, for now, they've calmed down

"Application cannot be executed. the file [insert file name] is infected. Do you want to activate you anti virus software now?"

Applications to have this warning: googletoolbaruser.exe, amimprvse.exe, searchfilterhost.exe, searchprotocolhost.exe, regsvr32.exe, taskeng.exe, logonui.exe, taskmgr.exe, wmiprvse.exe, rundll32.exe, ssu.exe, werfault.exe, wuauclt.exe, dllhost.exe, adobelm_cleanup.0001, wermgr.exe, wltuser.exe, aimtbserver.exe, flashutil10b.exe, wrutil.exe, control.exe,

"Your computer is being attacked my an internet virus. It could be a password stealing attack, a trojan-dropper, or similar."

Attack From: 185.40.224.188 port 54958; 177.17.240.33 port 43803; 84.57.131.49 port 62959; 99.56.173.218 port 38073; 153.70.138.64 port 31027; 245.113.248.24, port 52848; 89.223.207.177 port 28960; 168.10.75.91 port 27356; 107.102.154.58 port 21589; 189.168.203.105 port 10030; 125.221.226.221 port 12103; 89.225.116.112 port 26518; 140.17.126.100 port ?; 202.118.220.32 port ?; 210.118.119.74 port 6455; 101.238.91.147 port 29359, 231.241.216.166 port 24274; 86.119.97.221 port 2831; 229.117.139.97 port 35194; 184.220.158.174 port 46022; 164.221.71.57 port 22617; 135.94.36.120 port ?; 100.12.155.95 port 6792; 218.186.110.203 port 43595; 157.64.210.8 port 16673; 208.239.66.213 port 722; 208.85.222.30 port 64775; 231.183.10.97 port 42477;

Attacked Port: ?, 47147, 58030, 37564, 55955, 4306, 18274, 20304, 59477, 27914, 15826, 55989, ?, ?, 27109, 15024, 21910, 56260, 38572, 35517, 31067, ?, 35301, 21599, 27702, 23645, 12968, 26873

Threat: ?, Win32/Nuqel.E, BankerFox.A, Win32/Nuqel.E, Win32/Nuqel.E, BankerFox.A; BankerFox.A, Win32/Nuqel.E, Win32/Nuqel.E, Win32/Nuqel.E, BankerFox.A, BankerFox.A, ?, Win32/Nuqel.E, Win32/Nuqel.E, BankerFox.A, BankerFox.A, Win32/Nuqel.E, Win32/Nuqel.E, BankerFox.A, Win32/Nuqel.E, ?, BankerFox.A, BankerFox.A, BankerFox.A, BankerFox.A, Win32/Nuqel.E, BankerFox.A,

Sites that have popped up in Internet Explorer (which I don't use at all anymore since I got Firefox): av-protect.com/purchase?r=57.1, adult.com, porno.org, porno.com, viagra.com,